The Homophobic Series Book 2-A: (CHAPTER 6) "A Journey to Remember"

The Homophobic Series Book 2-A: 

(CHAPTER 6) 

"A Journey to Remember" 

Mga five minutes na siguro ang lumipas, I turned on our DVD component surround system and played on some music.

DirtEaterDane1983: Huh? Europa by Carlos Santana?

And then I approached our PC webcam, my shorts and underwear was already off, as I danced to the beat of the said music.

I took the headset into my ears, and upon one striking beat from the music, I then tore off half my shirt from its neck down.

“Baby, that is so damn hot…” as he whispered that on my ear.

I didn’t answer him. Instead I continued on the private show that I just made especially for my baby…

Somehow I did give him a hint on what’s ahead for tonight. I took a piece of a maraschino cherry, licked and played with it and I have given it a bite. Until what is left from it was just its stem.

And then I inserted it into my mouth, after quite some minutes, I sensually spit it off… and showed it to my Dane.

“Babe… Is that two knots?” he was really surprised upon seeing it.

And then I took this half gallon vanilla ice cream and I immediately stood up. I aligned the webcam into an angle that he would see my whole profile.

“Babe, this ice cream is you…” and I inserted my hard on dick in the ice cold dessert. I just remembered the apple pie scene from the American pie movie.

I moaned terribly loud that I could see my Dane’s eyes popped out. The vanilla ice cream was dripping all over the floor. I then scoop off some of it by using my bare hands, and I brushed it along my body. The coldness of the ice cream and the heat of my aroused body were now merging. It was a very sensational feeling.

My clothes were now soiled. I had turned on the PC speakers so that I could hear my baby mumbling with his lustful voice. I then took the bottle of chocolate syrup and poured it from my head, then my shoulders, my chest and into my wickedly hard dickhead!

“Babe, can I have my dessert please?” as he pleaded like a child who wants his candy back.

I could see him while he plays with his hard thing.

“Ssshhh! don’t be too naughty… Dessert would be served later…” as I hushed him down.

And as I finished spreading the syrup on my now sticky body, Santana’s music was already done by then… and Mike Francis’ music played-Let me in…

I got the bottle of maraschino cherries and poured it all over me again, I was soaking wet with its reddish syrup.

Now I am a life-size human sundae.

And then I decided to sit down and spread my legs apart, I took three pieces of cherries on the floor, took off its stems and one by one inserted each red fruit on my now wet ass.

“Babe… I wish I was there to lick your ass off…” and he was moaning like a devil by then.

Of course I wasn’t done yet. For the finale, I showed him my newly bought six inches, massively thick rubber dick.

“Babe, nakahanap ka pala ng iba?” he jokingly told me.

“Baby, ikaw to anu ka ba?” and I started inserting it into me.

It was painful alright. But I knew that my baby Dane was very pleased with it. And so I continued, even if I could feel it piercing my skin and I could feel the cherries inside of me, it was tingling.

“Raine, is that blood? Okay ka lang ba?” he suddenly got worried.

I didn’t mind it. Okay naman ako at nag eenjoy… Sya naman ay tuloy tuloy sa pag bati.

After quite some minutes I already reached halfway of it.

“Isagad mo pa baby…” and I could see his body pumping.

“Malapit nako baby!” and he were like shouting into ecstasy.

I could also feel that I am about to cum.

“Bhe… Sabay tayo!” and he squirted all his glory and it flew right into his webcam. And I also came along with him.

I pulled out the dildo from my ass, and the cherries from inside slided out as bits and pieces.

BUZZ!

DirtEaterDane1983: Baby Raine is that fruit salad?

I just then laughed and laughed.

Mike Francis’ song Let me in was not yet done by that time and so I decided to replay it.

And my baby started singing along with it.

“Let me in
with the flowers
don't bring me down
I'm on the ground
Let me in
you got the power
to kill the pain
I'm feelin' deep within”

And he just hummed along after some stanzas. And I just continued the song for him.

“Now we can dance upon the sweetest love refrain
you're my tomorrow and you're my today
now only you can show the way
through fire and rain I'm feelin' pain so much
you're such a part of me I want you back
hey! It's good to see you again…”

“Baby, I am very sorry at natatagalan ako dito ha… Gusto mo na ba akong bumalik dyan?” his voice suddenly became mellow.

Hindi ako sumagot. I don’t want him to worry and just decide na umuwi dito without fixing the issues with his dad.

“Sa totoo lang Raine, gustong gusto ko ng umuwi dyan. I do know that I am a bit reserved talking about my dad. Pero lately parang siya yata ang umiiwas sakin.” Dane told me.

“Don’t worry babe, I would just be fine here…” I do need to be strong for him.

We just stared on each others eyes for almost thirty minutes… Then we said our good byes and I called it a night. It was a bittersweet moment for me. But the important thing is that I did make my baby Dane happy, and that too makes me happy.

17^th of August 2008

Oh my, I had made one heck of a mess in our home office. Buti na lang it’s a Sunday today. So I’ve got my fave girl band album and put it on our player, of course I sing along with it.

“Dolls, are you ready? Let’s dance, dolls
Ooh, baby, dolls, fellas, are you ready?
Let’s dance, ooh, baby

I know you like me (I know you like me)
I know you do (I know you do)” as I started on wiping of the dried ice cream on our floor. And I just danced after some stanzas and there was it the sexiest chorus ever.

“Don’t cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me?
Don’t cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me?
Don’t cha, don’t cha?
Don’t cha wish your girlfriend was wrong like me?
Don’t cha wish your girlfriend was fun like me?
Don’t cha, don’t cha?” hell by this part, I am already dancing. And I slipped and had fall upon our office couch. Hehehe…

“I should be playing the song clumsy instead of this PCD hit… Hehehe” and I just laughed over my stupidity.

19^th of August 2008

It was a rainy Tuesday. It was a wrong decision for me not to use our car today. I was soaking wet when I got home. After I had my dinner, I just decided to watch on the television. There were not oh so interesting shows that I liked. It took me about fifteen minutes just channel surfing when my mobile phone rang.

“Babe…” it was my Dane. He sounds a bit sober.

I tried to be composed, “Yes my Dane?” I then tried to be naughtily funny.

But it seems it is not the time for me to kid around.

I know something was terribly wrong. He didn’t even had texted me yesterday. I just thought that he was just busy about something, so I didn’t even got to the point that I should be over thinking about him not texting me yesterday. But now, I already confirmed it that somehow something had happened yesterday or the other day.

He was still silent. I just feel it in my spine that he was weeping, but he just doesn’t want me to know that he does. I do know that he just don’t want me to worry. And from nowhere he just spoke…

“I just wanted to hear your voice, babe…” you could feel the lonliness in him.

“Dane… I’m just here for you… You’re a part of me, and I am a part of you. I know and I believe that we could both solve anything as long as we do help each other on facing it… Please babe…” I am even on the verge of crying but I didn’t. Kailangan kong iparamdam sa kanya na matatag ako para hindi rin siya mag-alala.

He just went quiet again. And he gave me some phone kisses…

“Raine…  Without you I could never live this life now. I hope nothing would change even if this kind of things happens to us… Remember babe, united as one…” I suddenly got goose bumps upon hearing these words from him.

All I can answer from that very moment was, “Yes babe, united as one…”

And then he just suddenly told me that he’s now home at his father’s house. He has been there since Sunday. He also asked me a favor if I could send the scrapbook album that his mum had made for Mandy and him as well as the pictures that we had when Mandy and Dominic stayed here in the country. And he told me that I should be having my goodnights rest already.

20^th of August 2008

Early Wednesday morning I immediately went into FedEx to send the things that my Dane had asked me last night. Along with it was a short “note”.

22^nd of August 2008

Dane texted me that the Photography conventions and seminars in Texas had already ended.

23^rd of August 2008

As usual it’s a Saturday gimmick night. I texted my Dane that I would be going with Lucky. I just wen’t there to have a dance and to have some drinks, many tried to approached me, but I don’t see the necessity for me to entertain them for the reason that you could see it on their eyes on what their intentions are…

27^th of August 2008

Dane flew to New York from Texas. It came out as a surprise for me and Mandy. He had several things to do there, that is why he decided on giving the Big Apple a visit.

30^th of August 2008

My Dane and his nephew Dominic had a stroll at Central Park. Afterwhich, they went into this toy store and gave his little nephew a toy shopping spree.

31^st of August 2008

Mandy, Domimic and my Dane went online that day.

DirtEaterDane1983: Is that the Pussycat Dolls Album again?

He saw me dancing while in the webcam, I had made him a call…

“Eh sa gusto ko yun eh…” I told him.

“Hi Uncle Raine!” as I heard Dominic’s sweet sounding voice.

“Hey how are you little one?” as I answered the little kid.

“I am doing great Uncle Raine… I just wish that you are also here just like Uncle Raine. And I miss the Vanilla ice cream treat that you have told me…” and Dominic just whispered the last unto me.

“Raine, he is actually very excited in going there… I told him that it is just months away for your wedding and so he could see you again…” Mandy told me.

Yeah, marriage… It is fast approaching na pala. I didn’t even notice the time. Ang dami kasi nangyari these past few months that it just simply slipped off my mind. It is not because I literally missed it or something. Siguro nasanay lang ako na parang married couple na rin kami ng Dane ko. Ayy lapit na… I am so excited! Xoxoxo

September 2008

1^st of September 2008

Early morning of the first day of September my hubby Dane had already had greeted me a very “Happy Monthsary.”

But today was not just a special day for us. It was also the day that he was about to visit our boss, “The Owner”, Mr. Wayne Patrick Russell, CEO of The TransAmerica City Tect Solutions Inc., or simple known as TACTS. One of the leading brands of BPO’s in the States as well as in our country.

Later that day Dane called me and had given me on some updates about his meeting with Mr. Russell.

“Babe, I’ll just update you on some things. Maybe you could already start on making some research in holding a very big event/party. Mr. Russell is into those kinds of stuff. That he is somehow had told me that he had an interest on having his birthday celebration in our country this October.” My Dane explained it to me.

Napakamot ako sa ulo? Anu ba ang alam ko in hosting a party?

“Babe, last year, he had his party in our offices in India, and it was an outlandish intricate Indian royalty themed party. Complete with elephants…” mas lalo yata akong nalula sa sinabi ni Dane.

How about the cost? And he was talking about elephants? So does that mean that I do need some lions?

“Don’t worry babe… I think sagot naman yata ni Mr. Russell ang lahat. Wala dapat ikabahala ang offices natin dyan sa Philippines. And I think he would be sending represenstatives there to help you out. But of course he told me na the idea should be coming from the host country. Mr. Russell just want to give his employees a party of their lifetime even though in this difficult times in business, medyo complicated right? Hey babe, parating na siya, I should be going now… Bye! Mwah! Miss you babe!...” as if naiisip ni Dane ang naiisip ko and I was relieved with what he had told me. At least lesser ang stress ko and Mr. Russell would be sending representatives and for a fact that it’s just barely a matter of two months to plan the said event. If I am right Mr. Russell’s birthday is on the thirtieth or the thirty-first of October.

2^nd of September 2008

Well I guess that I should be reconsidering of having a lion on Mr. Russell’s party by October. I had several ideas in mind. Since it’s in October well it is timely to somehow have a costume party. But the sophistication would be lesser if guest would attend with different themed outfits. It would look like a children’s Halloween costume party. Hmmm… I should focus on one theme… One cohesive idea… That was the moment on where I reconsidered the lion idea. Why not have an extravagant outlandish royalty medieval circus masquerade ball with a twist.

Complete with flying trapezes, jugglers, jesters, lions, fire-breathers, elaborate costumes, of course the best bands in the country today and the best caterers and event organizers ever.

I’ve considered the coliseum of the Araneta’s but it’s already booked by those days. I’ve also checked the CCP grounds, but I don’t think that the theme would be suited in such a place. And then the most perfect place had suddenly struck my head. And the good thing was it wasn’t booked on those dates.

3^rd of September 2008

I received an urgent call from Dane.

“Babe, Mr. Russell’s representatives would be coming by tomorrow night. I hope the presentation for the party’s concept is already okay by tomorrow. Anne or Ms. Woodsrow would also be giving a package with you by tomorrow night… I love you babe… Pasensya na medyo pre-occupied lang with meetings here…” and my Dane was referring to Mr. Russell’s Executive Assistant Ms. Anne Woodsrow.

“Okay lang babe… Wag ka masyado magpapagod dyan ha… Do you think the whole HR and Operations team would pull the presentation off?” I told my baby.

“I know and I certainly believe in all of you…” as he told me that with his sweet voice.

4^th of September 2008

That very night I already had the chance on seeing Ms. Anne Woodsrow. She was a petite charming lady, about her early thirties, and she has this very distinctive squeaky little voice. She was with Ms. Gladys Hemmingway, her secretary who’s about in her forties.

She had the luxury of iniviting me for dinner at the café of the hotel that she was staying to, The Edsa Shang-rila.

“Mr. Russell is a handful. Just imagine. I just won over a bet and here I am now having a vacation of a lifetime…” Ms. Woodsrow told us over dinner. I am now a bit confused. Is she here for business or for pleasure?

“So Raine? How are the operations here doing? Hmmm… Come to think of it… We should not be talking of business now. Mr. Russell specifically told me to just enjoy my stay here.” And Ms. Woodsrow then laughed, her secretary Gladys laughed along with her. I am now very confused, why is she acting this way. Is she like a mistress to the CEO? So I just butted in and asked her a simple question.

“How about the event presentation tomorrow?” I told her in an almost whispering voice.

“What presentation?” Gladys the secretary asked me.

“It is about Mr. Russell’s party on October?” I then popped out the news to her.

“Huh? Party? He’s having a party again?” and as if Ms. Woodsrow doesn’t believe on the thing that I just told her.

So Ms. Anne Woodsrow already had explained me on what really happened. Well technically she wasn’t told for the second time that she was again evaluating an event that would be held here in the country, much like what happened in India a year ago.

“That Wayne Patrick, I could squish him… Oh… Hey Raine I am just kidding… Please don’t interpret this attitude of mine in a negative way. You see, if you’ll also meet Mr. Russell in person, you’ll also have the same feeling or effect… but that is in a good way… He makes surprises in such a way that you would not forget it for a very long time. Much like being punk’d…” and I know that somehow she’s sincere with what she’s saying. So now I know that our CEO is a funny man. I guess I should be putting comedic acts on the day of the party.

After dinner, Ms. Woodsrow invited me into her hotel suite. She had an adjoining room with her secretary Gladys.

Ms. Woodsrow handed me a bag of Cadburry chocolates.

“I’ve heard from a passenger at the plane that you Filipinos’ love chocolates that much…” she told me in a very pleased manner.

“Thank you very much ma’m but I could not accept that… But I really do appreciate your kindness Ms, Woodsrow…” I respectfully declined on her token of appreciation.

“You could just call me Anne… It is Raine right? Dane told me already about your nickname. Hey wait a minute, he just had given me a package for you.” And Gladys her secretary handed me this box.

“Thank you Ms. Anne… I hope that you could enjoy your stay here in our country…” I don’t really know on what to address her really.

“Drop the the Miss, you could just call me Anne. I just wish that you could be as laid back just like Dane who is in the States. And don’t forget the bag of chocolates, I can’t eat that because I had sugar related health problems, while Gladys my friend here is on a diet…” and they again both laughed. They were like the dynamic duo.

“Again … Anne… Thank you…” and I stood up and I was about to give her a handshake.

“Raine don’t be too formal. TACTS is not about formality, we do mean business but in a sort of casual and fun way.” As Ms. Woodsrow or Anne reminded me of our company’s philosophy.

Somehow she did make sense.

“About the meeting tomorrow, maybe we could have it on a Saturday. I do still needed to have a talk to Wayne Patrick by tomorrow… By the way, Dane was a very cool and neat guy… He told me that he would be with you in about two weeks, and that he really misses you…” and I just went my way home after that short conversation with Anne. On my way to the elevator I told myself. Does Ms. Woodsrow know about the two of us? Mas lalo nagulo ang ulo ko. Buti na lang at na-urong ang presentation. Medyo hindi pa kasi polished eh at least maayos pa ng team bukas.

5^th of September 2008

I was a bit tired from last night and nakalimutan ko ng buksan yung package na pinadala sa akin ni Dane yesterday. Kaya dinala ko na rin on my way to work. On that very morning I already told the team the good news that Ms. Woodsrow had moved the presentation by tomorrow and that she is a person na makakasundo naming lahat. And I handed out the chocolates that Ms. Woodsrow had given me to the team. 

They were very pleased with the said “pasalubong” from her.

Everything was almost settled by five in the afternoon aside from the venue. I told the team that the venue would be a bit of a surprise and would be later revealed by tomorrow on the presentation with Ms. Woodsrow.

I then went into the office pick-up some things and I went into the car. There again was the package. Halos makalimutan ko na to sa sobrang pag ka busy. And so I opened it.

“Roller Skates?” napaisip ako? Aanuhin ko naman ito?

And a note just dropped from the box.

Babe,

Please include that in your presentation.

It would surely help you on putting a twist on Mr. Russell’s party.

Miss you babe! Mwah!

Love,

Domeng xoxo

6^th of September 2008

It was almost twelve in the afternoon. The team was a bit anxious about today’s presentation. We are all dressed for the occasion. We do always wear casual clothes on a Saturday because it’s a wash day. But today is not just ordinary day. The team was about to meet Ms. Anne Woodsrow.

And someone just entered our meeting room. She was in her maong jacket and some expensive looking slacks and with a scarf on her neck.

“Isn’t it a washday today?” said that little squeaky voice.

Someone from the back giggled. And so I immediately approached her.

“Guys… Ladies… I would like to introduce to you Ms. Anne Woodsrow, Mr. Russell’s Executive Assistant…” and I gave them a signal on preparing for the beginning of the presentation.

“You could just call me Anne guys and gals… Anyways you could all have a sit right now…” and she had made a call.

And her secretary entered the door.

“Anne… the delivery is already here…” Gladys told her boss. And delivery men entered the room.

“Since I didn’t have my lunch yet I decided to bring my lunch here with you. My treat!” and we were given a fettucine Alfredo pasta and roasted chicken set.

Anne was very casual. At first the team was very reserved but after an hour or so, the whole team was so acquainted to her, that they felt confident on starting the presentation. One by one Anne approved on every detail that the team had given her.

“How about the venue?” Ms. Woodsrow asked the whole team. It was the time for the approval of the venue, now was my moment.

“After careful thinking and consideration… I then decided that the venue would be in…” as the whole room waited for the anticipation.

“The party would be in… Intramuros… To be exact, inside the walled city…” and their jaws just dropped. While Anne was still interested in waiting for an explanation from me.

From behind I could hear comments like, “Why not in Araneta Coliseum, or The Tent sa the Fort…”

And someone joke around… “May fort din dun… Fort Santiago…” and I could hear laugher from them.

I do know that somehow they would be having mixed feelings about it. Pero I do needed to stick for what I believe in. I didn’t spoke off any word. Instead, I took off the Roller Skates from the box package that Dane had sended me and put it on the top of the meeting table.

“Roller Skates sa Intramuros? Eh bako-bako dun?” someone again commented.

By that moment I was already a bit uneasy.

Everyone was so restless about the executive assistant’s reaction. But as if the gods and goddesses were with me. That Anne or Ms. Woodsrow gave me two thumbs up.

Kahit ako napaisip din? What’s with the skates? But the important thing is that okay na ang lahat. Everyone had given me their congratulations.

“Job well done Raine… Make us proud okay? I’ll be back in a week… Just go on with the plan. Everything would be charged under Mr. Russell’s account. Gladys and I are on our way to the island of Palawan.” And Anne just gave me a handshake and this sweetest smile and left the offices in Ortigas.

Oh Raine… Salamat at natapos din.

That very night my Dane texted. – “I’ve heard everything wen’t well with the presentation”

“Yes, thanks to your skates tactic babe… But what’s with it that she just approved it?” as I asked my Dane in wonder.

“Hmmm… You’ll know as soon as I get home… Malapit na yun babe… Miss na kita eh… Mwah!” and that was his last text for that night.

8^th of September 2008

My Dane last texted yesterday. He went out with the rest of Mandy’s family and had dinner outside. He also told me that he went to church yesterday. But it seemed that he got a busy day today. That he didn’t even had the chance to even text me just once.

9^th of September 2008

I was a bit worried on a Tuesday morning. But I do needed to at least focus myself with my job today most especially with the grueling task of planning an event and taking care of the issues in the HR department.

At about four in the afternoon I think I had checked my sent items folder and I think I already had at least  more than thirty text messages for my Dane just for today. Hindi pa kasama dun ung yesterday.

It was about half past seven in the evening, I decided on getting online that night to at least check out on him. 

Mabuti na lang at online si sister Mandy. I hurriedly called her.

“How are you doing Raine?” Mandy seem to be very excited at that time.

“Hmmm… I am a bit okay… Is Dane there sis?” hindi na ako makapaghintay on asking her about what had happen.

“Huh? Haven’t he told you that he’s already on his way home there with you? He already had his flight booked… Actually he’s a bit on a hurry… Ihahatid nga namin sana siya, but he told us that there’s no need for that… Ooops… It might be a surprise… Oh my… My brother would surely kill me…” I was a bit relieved of the thought that it might be a surprise. And poor little sis, mukhang hindi na nga me masusurprise patay siya kay Dane. But the weird thing is that why didn’t he told his sister about this so-called surprise of his. Para naman makasabwat niya ito.

I decided na hintayin siya for tonight. Seconds became minutes, minutes became hours… I think it was about two in the morning ng nakatulog ako in our sofa just waiting for him.

10^th of September 2008

He didn’t come home… My heart crumbled on this very day that I knew that he was missing. This was the very same feeling that I felt on that very day that I woke up one New Year’s morning. Feeling ko magkakasakit ako. I am still clueless on where the hell did he actually went into…

Isinubsob ko na lang ang sarili ko sa trabaho. Bumalik ako sa cubicle ko, instead staying in his office. Medyo nadidistract ako… it is because that very office just gives me memories…

Anu ka ba Raine?… Wala pa naman na confirmation kung anu ba ang nangyari sa kanya. Hindi naman siya nakikipaghiwalay sayo. Anu ka ba, wag makitid ang utak okay?

After my very busy schedule in the office I decided to go into the offices of NAIA, buti na lang sa isang airline company affiliate nagtatrabaho si Lucky. And somehow he pulled some strings for me.

“Eh sis… days ago pa pala naka-uwi ang asawa mo… Anu na kaya ang nangyari dun?” tanung ni Lucky.

Ako pa raw ang tanungin ng bakla. Eh kahit nga ako hindi ko masagot ang tanong niya. I don’t even know where to start. Kinidnap na ba siya? Eh wala namang ransom? May ibang asawa? Eh di dapat sinabi na niya. Tsk tsk tsk… Dane mapupukpok kita sa ulo pag uwi mo… At umuwi na lang ako sa bahay ng luhaan.

Pag-kauwi ko, I went straight online so that I could tell sister Mandy on what had happen to his brother Dane. But sad thing thought hindi siya online. Instead our buddy/colleague Gab buzzed me over YM.

BUZZ!

Gabo_24: Hey, kamusta ka na Raine… Nagkita kami ni Dane dito ha… That was the time when he was with his sister Mandy. Kasama ko rin si JM nun.

Ay salamat, at least meron nang mag-update sakin.

MeteorRaine1109: May naikwento ba siya about sa pag-uwi niya rito sa Pilipinas?

Gabo_24: Wala naman, pero he asked me some favors though, medyo mahirap, kaso mukhang kailangan niya eh. Sabi niya i-send ko na lang yung results sa e-mail niya.

MeteorRaine1109: Eh, what is it all about? Mukha bang confidential?

Gabo_24: Siguro… Pero hindi ako sigurado ha… Parang he is like tracing this person. I think nakasave pa sakin yung e-mail nung pinahanap niya. Eto yun ano. xoxend@hotmail.com

Hindi familiar sa akin yung e-mail medyo nag-aalala ako.

Gabo_24: Hey Raine, okay ka lang ba? Don’t tell me na… I don’t think naman na masama ang intention niya with this, mukhang seryoso nga siya when he asked me this favor. Sa totoo lang medyo nahirapan ako sa pag hack sa account niyan. And then I just discovered na dummy e-mail lang pala yan. Buti na lang na trace ko kung saang domain, server and location nanggaling yung e-mail. It’s from a personal computer, with the name Anthony Santos. The power of technology talaga.

IT expert namin kasi noon si Gab sa company, nagkaroon siya ng chance na makapag migrate sa States kasi dun na rin naka-base ang family niya.

MeteorRaine1109: May nalaman ka ba about that Anthony Santos guy? Sa totoo lang hindi ko siya kilala.

Gabo_24: Actually wala eh. Sa totoo lang after ko ma-extract yung info binigay ko na kagad sa kanya. Ewan ko kung sinunod niya ung instructions ko in using a networking site para matrace ung Anthony na yun. Kasi it seems naman na hindi ficticious yung name.

Napa-isip ako, who is this Anthony Santos ba?

After namin mag-chat ni Gab, eh kakain na sana ako kaso wala akong gana. Para bang bibigyakin ang ulo ko sa kakaisip ng tungkol sa kanya. Earlier after I did try locating sa Facebook, Friendster at MySpace yang Anthony Santos na yan. Pero gazillions pala ang Anthony Santos sa Pilipinas. Hmpft!!!

11^th of September 2008

Anthony Santos, Anthony Santos, Anthony Santos, Anthony Santos… Sino nga ba yang damuhong yan… Wala akong ka-idea idea kung sino ba yan. I tried checking out some files sa office. But in some peculiar way, wala kaming employee or previous employee o kahit applicant with the name na Anthony Santos. Weird ano? Para bang sinasabi ng aking fate na wag akong mag-isip ng kung anu-ano.

12^th of September 2008

Pumasok na ako. Hanggang trabaho it is very evident na medyo wala ako sa sarili ko. Ayaw ko naman talagang mag-isip. Kaso iba ang idinidikta ng puso ko, di ba technically the “emotional heart” is still part of the brain. Kita mo kung anu-ano ang pinag-iisip ko. Pag-dating ng five ng hapon. Umuwi kagad ako nagmamadali akong mag drive pauwi sa condo namin. Nagtataka nga ako eh, bakit ginagamit ko pa tong kotse nya, eh mukhang ididispatsya na niya ako. Gusto kong pumasyal, at uminom. Kaya dali-dali ko na binuksan ang pinto ng aming condo. To my surprise, Dane was there, sitting on our couch, he had his hair trimmed short. Dane just stood up and he tried on reaching me so that he could give me this home-coming kiss, but I went straight to our room. I do know that he could feel my fury. He tried to grab me by my arms. But I resisted.

Pak! 

I gave him this slap. Nagulat ako. Nakita ko na namula ang kanyang maputing mukha.

Napatungo lang ako at sinabi, “I don’t want to be treated like this…” and I started to weep.

Hindi siya nag-salita, I just continued on talking and talking…

“Tang-ina Dane… Halos mabaliw ako rito alam mo ba yun? I am just a text away you know? Bakit ayaw mo na ba… Isinusuko mo na ba ako?” I was like a madman from hell.

Still there was no word from him.

Instead he reached for his hand-carry bag and pulled this white envelope. He pulled something from that said envelope and had laid it over our bed.

Nanlaki ang mata ko. I was literally trembling. Umupo sya sa may dulo ng aming kama, sa may harapan ko.

NEXT:

The Homophobic Series Book 2-A: 

(CHAPTER 7) 

"A Journey to Remember"